Your Memory Will Carry On - Goodbye MCR

I've been staring at the screen of my laptop for a solid 30 minutes, thinking about what to say about My Chemical Romance breaking up after 12 years. My best friend, who got me into them in the first place, woke me up this morning with the terrible news and since then I get shivers whenever I think about what it actually means that they're gone. No more new songs to comfort me, no more lyrics to analyse, no more interviews, no more concerts. Yes, I planned on seeing them on their next tour which most likely would have taken place after the release of the complete new album. Instead there won't be another release, there won't be another tour. All we have left are the five albums and the memories we connect to them. 

I've been a fan of MCR since around 2 years I think, so I've only been on a tiny part of this journey. I remember how my best friend totally fell for them and didn't talk about any other band for months, so I gave them a shot. At that point of time I still listened more to pop music so my reaction to MCR was "what no thank you" (or something like that but you get my point). Nevertheless she put all of their albums on my iPod and said: "Believe me, one day you'll need them and they'll be there and you'll be glad about it."
I shrugged it off because I didn't really believe that music could have any impact on your life. Who knows if it was fate or something else, but only a few months later I slipped into this dark hole called depression, I spent one single sleepless night until I remembered her words. I picked up my iPod, scrolled my way down to MCR and pressed play. From that night on this band accompanied me literally through everything, for better or for worse.
I was so excited for the new album, I guess we all were. With all the new bands I discovered, I slightly lost touch with MCR but that doesn't mean I stopped listening to them or stopped liking them. I expected so many new big things happening in the future, so many new experiences, stories and memories. This band will always have a special place in my heart no matter how many years will pass by. 

Actually I wanted to talk about the music they created during the last 12 years but I can't. I can't find the proper words to explain to you how I feel this warm feeling while listening to Summertime or this feeling of being invincible while listening to Famous Last Words. I don't know how to explain that all of their songs remind me of my best friend simply because she loves them with every fiber of her body and it breaks my heart to imagine how she's feeling about this. I don't know how to explain that I'm sitting here in tears while listening to I'm Not Okay because I really am not okay with this. I love My Chemical Romance so much, I totally respect their decision of coming to an end but I need some time to deal with it. 

Thank you MCR. Thank you for the moments, memories, happiness. Thank you for being there when I need you the most, so long and good night.